Wednesday, December 9, 2009

The new bed...

So we did get the new bed and it is much better than the first. (I will load pictures later) We decided thanks to all your help and information and of course Eric's wishes to put the bed upstairs. He is not currently using the bed and still feels comfortable in our bed so that is where he will stay until the time comes to have him in the hospital bed. I bought a small tree for the room and have converted it into a bedroom/family room/study room and have decorated it with a few Christmas items. It looks pretty good and it is clean!

Eric is doing about the same...sleeps alot but is still eating and drinking. He is able to socialize with visitors and just shuts his eyes if he gets tired. He told me today that he is just trying to make it until January 1, 2010. He knows his time is near and tells me that by holding up his finger and looking to the sky. I am not sure what he is looking at but he just says "not today but its getting close, maybe tomorrow". He also told my friend that he will see them on the other side but that he could not take them and they would just have to fight it our here. Although I can say this now (who knows about later)...There is some comfort in the fact that he is ready to go and knows that we will be ok here on earth. I am sure his faith in God and mine is what allows us to have the strength to get though. (remember I said it is easier to say this now and who know about later.)

17 comments:

Anonymous said...

Thinking about you all the time! Always know we are here when you need anything! XOXO The Horn Family

Anonymous said...

Thinking about you always. Love you lots. Love your sis Jenn

Anonymous said...

Hang in there Hallie. We continue to pray for all of you.

Love,

Liz Miller

Anonymous said...

Hallie,
My heart hurts for you and that you have to go through this. I am so sorry. I am thinking about you and just a phone call away. Try to keep your spirits up and remember what Randy Pausche's wife said. Try not to think of what makes you sad. If it hurts then remember it is not helpful. Enjoy every moment with your sweet husband. Tell him we said hello! :-) I will remember our two foot hot dog and continue to make him proud at meal time :-)

Anonymous said...

Hallie, I am sorry you and your family are going through these tought times.If there is anything I can do, I am just down the street.Please tell Eric we are thinking and praying for him.
Inna Peart

Anonymous said...

Hallie thinking of you and your family, my prayers to you. I pray god gives you strength and peace to go thru this,Stay strong for your little one it's easier said than done.Prayers your way.
Erika Lopez and family

Anonymous said...

Hallie, your plan sounds like a great plan all things considered. How nice that you were able to create an environment where you all can continue to be together. My thoughts and prayers continue to be with you. Continue to trust in God and follow your heart!
Chrissy Nigrelli

Bill Aviles said...

I wish I could give you more strength. All of you are truly amazing. Our family prays that your wishes are met. Bill Aviles and Family

Jackie said...

You are an amazingly strong wife, mother, and caregiver. I know how difficult it is, and yet still don't have the words to express my sincere condolences.

I can remember walking a very fine line in regards to Bill's death and ensuring him that we will be OK. On one hand I was so devastated that there is no way to hide my deepest hurt and suffering, but on the other hand, I had to show him that we would be OK and I would take care of our son and always exalt his memory (since he won't actually remember him at age 3). I felt contradictory at times thinking, "I can't live without you. I didn't sign up to lose you like this." and then the next minute thinking, "I WILL be all right and I'll raise our son to be a good man, like his dad."

Hallie, if you'll allow me, I'd like to give some suggestions to a few of your extremely loyal, supportive family and friends. It is the hardest (and most humbling) thing to ask others for help... especially when you are not used to relying on others. The most help I ever received when my husband was dying was from those who didn't ask me what I needed, they just did it. Often, I couldn't even figure out what I needed because I was drowning in my surroundings trying to gasp for air. The people who never asked what I needed and just showed up, got us groceries, brought us dinner, collected gift cards, came over and played with our son, cleaned our house, skimmed the pool, washed the cars, put the trashcans out, etc. You get the point... Follow the Nike slogan and Just Do It.

Anonymous said...

Dear Eric, Hallie, and Hunter,
Jan and I and her class of fourth graders have been praying for you all daily. One thing we've prayed for is that you would all draw even closer to God through this ordeal. That prayer has clearly been answered, and for that we are grateful. We will continue to pray that you'll know God's peace through the toughest times. Pierre and Jan

Anonymous said...

Eric, Hallie and Hunter,
You are on my heart and mind throughout each and every day and night. There are no easy words to say at a time like this. I just want you to know that You are Definitely Loved and I Pray for You.
God Bless You and Give You Strength that you never knew that you had and Comfort you as ONLY HE can. Linda Daugherty

Anonymous said...

Hallie, your strength and faith are so apparent when reading the blog. My thoughts and prayers are with you all.

Anonymous said...

Dear Eric, Hallie and Hunter,
Please know you are in our thoughts and prayers! May God's arms of love comfort each of you as you rest in Him, and know that God is in control of every detail of our lives. Jesus loves you so much! May your faith in Him give you strength. May the hope that you will one day be together again, without pain, help you press on.
We love you and are praying!
Sandy (Farris) Phillips and Family

Anonymous said...

Thinking about your family. I will continue to pray.

In my thoughts,
MD

Anonymous said...

Dear Eric, Hallie and Hunter,
Just got a call from Sandy a few hours ago about what is happening today and wanted to let you know you are all in our prayers. As I spoke to a lady named Hallie yesterday, God laid you and Eric on my heart. May you continue to lean on our sweet Jesus for strength and comfort and may He hear and answer the prayers of your hearts. God Bless you all,
Love, Mike and Susie Farris

Anonymous said...

Eric , Hallie & Hunter,

I’m reminded of the story of a little boy who was to play the part of the Inn’s Keeper in the children’s annual Christmas play. Each time during the rehearsal, when it came time for him to tell Mary and Joseph there was no room in the Inn, he couldn’t say his line. The director finally asked him why he was having so much trouble. He told him, “I just can’t send Jesus away! He can have my room!”

Please know that at this very moment and always, Jesus is with you. He will always be with you. He will always be there for you. He abides forever. He will never say good night. He will never leave you. He will never forsake you. He is in your home; He is in your room; He is with you everywhere you go and everywhere you are because He is in your heart.

At times like these we often find ourselves asking the question, "Why?" We don't always know why things happen the way they do, nor will we until we are in God's presence. Nonetheless, everything has a purpose and God has a purpose for everything. Warren Wiersbe, an author and Bible teacher, once said, “As God’s children we live on promises, not on explanations. When we arrive in heaven we will hear the explanations, accept them, and we will say, ‘May God be glorified.’”

“For now we see in a mirror, dimly, but then face to face. Now I know in part, but then I shall know just as I also am known” (1 Corinthians 13:12).

God bless you,
Chaplain Steve
Riverside City Fire Department

Anonymous said...

Dear Precious Hallie & Family,

Your faithfullness in caring for Eric is a beautiful legacy of love, courage and strength.

God Bless,
Liz McCaughey